Here, Now

Here we are. Alone at home. Never enough time. So busy. And here we all are. With nothing but time. No work. No travel. Just stillness, inside. It’s uncomfortable. Left to ourselves. So many of us work so hard to avoid exactly this. This opportunity to look inside. To be with your mind. Your body. Your feelings. No! Not my feelings! I have felt the tension between non-reactivity and detachment and real fear and worry. I am holding both the resistance and the acceptance. It’s uncomfortable in here. But this morning, sitting, with my eyes closed and my mind wandering to dinner, I thought to myself, ‘I will be nice and easy today’ Easy. What does that feel like? Can we choose that? I don’t know. But I did this morning. I am feeling the tension now. Here we are.

So. What’s there to do then. Today, I want to write. I don’t want to read the news. I don’t want to worry and browse. Maybe I will later. When it feels easier.

I am thinking about our psyches. All the parts of ourselves that we’re being forced to hang out with. No social distancing in there, unfortunately.

In A Path With Heart by Jack Kornfield he lists these characters , inherent within each of us (and in company with many, many more):

The Hero

The Lover

The Hermit

The Dictator

The Wise Woman

The Fool

I will explore these characters in the coming days and share what I find. Stay tuned. And don’t be afraid of your feelings. Remember, nice and easy.

With love, in solitude and solidarity

Annalyn